Tuesday, June 5, 2012
We're off for a weigh-in this afternoon
Not for me. For Rowan. This is the test to see if we're going to have to start some formula supplementation to keep his weight on track.
I'm nervous. It's a big test of motherhood, being able to get enough food into your kids to keep them growing. I didn't realise that until I had difficulty doing it (had no issues with the first two, but the third one caused me some grief). And after a good start fourth time around, we've gone off track a little bit. Since we discovered this almost three weeks ago we've had to ramp up Rowan's solid food, I've had to take a pretty disgusting tasting herbal mixture to boost my milk supply and we've been hoping and praying that these things will make a difference.
I think he looks a bit fatter. It might be just me seeing what I want to see. But surely the mashed up avocado and double cream I've been feeding him on a regular basis over the past few weeks must have made some difference?
I hope I won't do something stupid like cry if it hasn't worked. Chris is running a meeting this afternoon at work so I can't call him if the news isn't good.
I know what you're all thinking. Formula isn't the end of the world. In the end, I guess it isn't. But I worry that it might be the beginning of the end of breastfeeding. And I don't think I'm ready for that yet.