Tuesday, June 5, 2012

We're off for a weigh-in this afternoon


Not for me. For Rowan. This is the test to see if we're going to have to start some formula supplementation to keep his weight on track.

I'm nervous. It's a big test of motherhood, being able to get enough food into your kids to keep them growing. I didn't realise that until I had difficulty doing it (had no issues with the first two, but the third one caused me some grief). And after a good start fourth time around, we've gone off track a little bit. Since we discovered this almost three weeks ago we've had to ramp up Rowan's solid food, I've had to take a pretty disgusting tasting herbal mixture to boost my milk supply and we've been hoping and praying that these things will make a difference.

I think he looks a bit fatter. It might be just me seeing what I want to see. But surely the mashed up avocado and double cream I've been feeding him on a regular basis over the past few weeks must have made some difference?

I hope I won't do something stupid like cry if it hasn't worked. Chris is running a meeting this afternoon at work so I can't  call him if the news isn't good.

I know what you're all thinking. Formula isn't the end of the world. In the end, I guess it isn't. But I worry that it might be the beginning of the end of breastfeeding. And I don't think I'm ready for that yet.

4 comments:

Petrina said...

Avocado & double cream? Yum! Praying it's worked...

One for a wish.. said...

I'm sure that they've seen lots of crying Mums at the pediatricians! I cried when my bubs failed to thrive, had heart murmurs discovered,etc etc
Hopefully though all will be ok. I used to find my milk dropped off if I got tired, didn't drink enough, didn't feed regularly. So with no. 4 I made a conscious decision to just take the time (and ignore all the have-tos)
Still my baies never were those roly-poly babies that some breastfeeding Mum's have!

Wendy said...

Unfortunately I can't relate. I actually wished for a petite girl! I always had way too much milk, even though I was totally exhausted. But I've watched my sister and others go through the torment and my heart goes out to you. It is a stressful enough time as it is, without this. How did it go, Karen?

Karen said...

Update above...good news :)
I think I am in the milk dropping off when tired, not drinking enough water, running around busily after three other kids camp. Back into the "focus on feeding not what you have to do before/after it" mindset is where I need to be....