I've been feeling a bit tired, lonely and blue for the past few days. Not sure why. Maybe it's the cumulative effect of seven weeks of interrupted sleep and my advancing age (!). Rowan has been fussy with his feeds. The big boys have been fighting with each other more than usual. I think they are bored. Rosie screams a lot when she's asked to do something. The C string tuning peg on my new ukulele is loose and that string goes out of tune really quickly. We've been trying to plan for Liam's birthday party with family tomorrow and get the house and backyard tidied up. I'm feeling a bit sad that we don't get invited out much as a family anymore and worrying that it's because there's far too many of us (or alternatively, that we're not good company?). We invite people over but I find that exhausting and usually need a couple of days recovery time afterwards.
What I really would like to do is plan some fun things to do together as a family. Everything feels like it revolves around baby feeding times at the moment. I know this will pass, but the next few weeks of holidays are feeling like they will be an effort to get through...
Okay. Time to stop moaning. I think I should get out and do some exercise. I'm going out this afternoon to a fundraising afternoon tea for our friend who is off to Nepal to teach in a missionary school. And I need to practise playing Happy Birthday on the ukulele for Liam's party.
I'm hoping all that will lift my spirits a little bit.